I don’t know much about Death. I know it’s absolute because I’m alive but I never really gave it much thought. Heaven might be real and perhaps a very specific scientific reason for why could be in place. Yet as someone who overthinks everything the conclusion to how we all will end up seems more mathematical than it should.
I am here now and the happiest I have ever been. I have a job, hobbies,family and thoughts. I don’t believe it just ends and I never believed in good byes forever. Maybe a dramatic change makes more sense to me because I have witnessed it. Sure I have dismissed people and places but that doesn’t mean they are gone forever…just changed.
Existence is a funny thing because on some level I need to believe that it has always been. If the universe proves anything it is that everything comes from something and that the thought is ever expanding. That with pleasure comes pain. Peace and violence. Balance to what we are at all times.
We can only truly appreciate what we have in moments of lose and faith is the best coping mechanism we have. I want to believe that it continues to get better and that if I’m suffering it’s because the universe is making something better for someone. Is it justified to me? Maybe not but to the grand scheme of it all maybe it is. I’m not the center of the universe but I am playing my role. I’m enjoying the gifts I have and the peace I have been given.
The fight will be forever and it comes with it’s pros and cons. If god is real it is balanced.