Currently I’m sitting in a Hotel room about to start my day. Being back in Brooklyn, NY reminds me of many things but a sense of comfort blankets me here that it doesn’t any place else in the world. Some of the best and worst parts of the world are here. I feel safe here in a odd way. Like no matter what happens in the world this place alone will take care of me.
Maybe it’s the fact that my brain knows that every business, Doctor, Dentist, Health care worker, Police officer, Fireman and so on here has dealt with so much experience in a single week than most places will throw at a person in a single year. How can’t that be true? It’s people and possibility built on top of each other which has both negative and positive affects to it but knowing that chances are it’s already been done or seen is comforting to me.
I think about the small town I live in now and the past almost 20 years of experience I have had in it. So much has changed and yet stays the same. So much has happened and even with it’s limited resources some how I have made it work. Part of me feels like it was chance and possibility. It could have been so much worse but I took the steps forward that I needed too and it all worked out. I pushed and fought and learned the best I could.
To say I did it without fear would be a lie. Of course I can tell the future but I can say that I put faith in my own word and gave it my all. I will continue to do that with everything I do. Not once has it been easy but I suppose in life that is how things work. You take a chance with everything you do. Have I enjoyed the ride so far? Hell yea.. and will I enjoy it the rest of way while it’s yet to be seen I would like to think my personality won’t change that much and I will at the very least try.
I don’t know what will happen in the next 39 years. I am just pushing forward and hoping to land on my feet like everyone else. Enjoy the parts I can.