The sun goes up than down. Time goes faster now. Remember to breath. Time is steady and anxiety is real. The older I get the more I need to remind myself these lessons. Hard lessons about how I managed to get here come to mind.
Don’t get me wrong I’m blessed in so many ways and my faith is real. Yet to say that I don’t struggle with overthinking, over compensating and over reacting would be a lie. It’s taken so much to get here and every breath is a reminder of how lucky I am. I know loss is coming in my future and I try to stay mentally ready at all times but I also stay optimistic.
Not all doom and gloom like it once was. I love the style still but it’s not as important to keep up with. I’m still the happiest I have ever been in this moment but it does force me to hold this small part of me to be ready.
change is entirely possible…