I’m reflecting today on the past. My first word was Ghostbusters! Which to me explains my obsession with whatever my focus is at its time period. Drawing,art,video games, and music all had parts in my life. Writing and reading has always been sprinkled in all of it.
For a brief period I stopped because my brother and some chick he was seeing found one of my notebooks and made fun of me because I wrote about Mortal Kombat characters. Sounds stupid now but for whatever the reason I stopped writing. Later on I picked it up again because it became the outlet for me that is now Kainless.
I must have explained the story of Kainless a million times on here but let’s do it one more time. I was born in Brooklyn, NY and have moved 8 times in my life. So changing things like friends, locations and ways of thinking is something I need to do every let’s say 3 years or so. The last time I did it was in 2006 or 07 I lost my job in Manhattan after 9 months. I started looking into virtual spaces. Stuff like Gaia, IMVU, second life, and social media was only becoming what it is today. I wasn’t in college so Facebook was exclusive to that. Twitter wasn’t a thing. Myspace was slowly fading away. Lots of ways to meet people that didn’t require leaving my room. At the time I was still going to NYCGoth which was a social chat that merged with other links like slit wrist and some other edgy nonsense. Regardless I made up the name because I was reading deep into the lore of legacy of kain but couldn’t get the name so clever as I am I went from cyraxdead,sweetest Alice, kabal610,stillsostill610,methuselah6463, to eventually Kainless. I’m sure I’m forgetting other stages..
Regardless I would find groups to talk to. People I would call friends at the time. Move to Wisconsin, move back to New york. continue to move around little bit more here and there but eventually go back to New York and build this life as best I can. A lot of it was luck to me. In terms of clicks and vibes and people for the most part it’s always been the same types of people. Artist, music lovers and gamers. Yet thinking back on it I have reset myself at least..17 times.
That’s just life I think you go from place to place and spend things stuck and some don’t. Life to me has away of making things important and taking those things away to grow. It’s an uphill and downhill thing I suppose.