We do as we do. Over the years I have come to writing here as away to explain my current state of mind thru observations. It’s becoming easier for me to write and harder for me to understand the world around me. After a point of age I think the mind settles into a very black and white way of thinking and it leaves very little room for gray. Gray I feel is the place most honest truths come from. My personality for example uses a great many methods of humor to deal with every day stressful situations which works sometimes but..sometimes not so much.
If I feed all of these observations into an AI algorithm I’m sure it could write some nonsense sounding like me on here but it would also be cold and without any of my own personality. I find it sorta funny how serious this makes me sound but in truth I haven’t really changed much since I was 12 years old. Thinking about that and how to continue going forward perhaps I shouldn’t be so morbid and gloomy about my writing on how my little bit of hope in humanity has dwindled during the years.
its true my faith in humanity has probably reached the lowest it has ever been but with that same statement I can say I’m the happiest I have ever been maybe more so looking forward to the changes about to happen. I also do believe we are progressing but maybe faster than the thought of our actions. Dress like a clown and get treated as one which to me is probably the best way to be. Full of surprises and always trying for something new and interesting. Always looking for that next best conversation to give me hope.
i think often about my own personal progress and the demons I have embraced and defeated. How politics have become a focus of observation due to my personal thoughts on the rising prices around me. How I understand the digital and mechanical manufacturing of goods somehow became more costly than highering labors to do the work for us? The ups the downs and the absence of toys r us in my life!
i have known about abortions and transexual behavior since the 80s when I was born. I grew up seeing all sorts of people in Brooklyn and they all had to deal with this problem or that problem. It’s all nothing new to me but what is new to me in the light shining on stuff that doesn’t concern anyone but A and B with the outside needing to C it’s way out.
Hell I was the kid with the nail polish, colored hair and black clothing who most people on the street looked at and simply didn’t understand the why. It was about being me and not trying to be anything else. I felt most comfortable with myself during those times walking around Brooklyn and a huge part of me misses it but here we are under the responsibility flag of adult hood and I’m tired of explaining myself. So I keep it simple now with my confidence and comforts. I do as I do.