Observation 162

Recently I have come to some interesting conclusions/Observations about my life. Currently at only the young age of 34 I am starting to notice a few things are happening that I either NEVER noticed.. or just didn’t observe.

From a very real human look at myself in the mirror I can see for the first time signs of aging. Now I am sure that statement alone raises some questions on WHAT… you never noticed that? Of course I noticed it before but NOW as opposed to before I notice things happening on the older state of my life. Gray hair, Wrinkles, can’t eat this…can’t eat that.. Little things that show a lack of youth and perhaps a bit of break down as aging does.

Now by no means do I believe I am old. Hell I’ll be 80 and I won’t believe I am old but I do notice that things I could get away before I can’t now. I could at the age of 17 eat 3 gallons of Ice cream a day and not gain weight.. Today I look at Ice cream and add 5 pounds.  I notice my moods are far better today as opposed to 17 but that doesn’t come without the fact that I do DWELL on things more now. Which means I have to make a conscious decision to raise my moods.

Now I have always been good at keeping myself in those spaces. I surround myself with good. My girlfriend, my family, my friends and my heart is always in the right place. I do my best at everything and I never once have ever put myself into a position that I didn’t control or overthink. It’s simply always been my nature.

Yet with coming back to aging I notice that if I don’t workout or if I don’t stay active for long periods of time it does effect my mood in a negative state. So I go to the gym.. Not as much as I would like but I go to raise my mood and I go to try to maintain my health which at this point I can honestly say I am as healthy as I can be.

My state of mind on everything is always about Progress. I have done well at work, tried my best to keep relationships even, and for the most part have very little to complain about. During the winter I sleep more just like everyone but I also fight the good fight with the punches as they approach.

I look forward to the future and at this point I know great changes are coming. Dusk.. and it’s embrace!