Observation 180

If you had a chance to sit down and talk to the person whom stood in your skin about 20 years ago what would you say? Hell what would that situation be like at all? Would it be like looking in a mirror or would it be like looking at someone you have never meet?

In less than 24 hours I will be 36 years old. In less than a month I will have worked my current job for 10 straight years. It will have been exactly 6 months and 9 years that I have been with my Megan. I will have completed just short of 20 post till 200 on this site and my state of mind is and will continue to be at it’s best place in all that. I can say that I am in complete control of my destiny and the fates that be. I can say that everything that has come before me has been my doing and NO ONE else.

Life has it’s ups and it’s downs without a question. Since birth I have had to deal with struggling just to breath. I KNOW the importance of fighting to get what you want and fighting just struggle for comfort. I have tried very hard to get to the place I am at and the only question I have now is.. What to do next? I have options and places I want to go..with time I will get to that.

My work is far from done and while I remain in a place I am comfortable with I am also left with wonder like everyone else. What ..comes next? WHO’S NEXT?..WHAT’S NEXT?.. possibility is great and terrifying.. I look forward to that much.

Observation 178

Recently I have noticed a true wave of either ignorance or a just lack of common sense from my local Community. I have to wonder if this is just me and my getting older/point of view or if it’s perhaps something in the water? Cause of the rise of temperature I have a feeling that the people will start to behave for lack of a better way of saying ” Goofy”.

Now don’t get me wrong “Goofy” in the context I use it is often a good thing. Yet we aren’t talking about that definition of the word. No we are talking people being overly sensitive about Nonsense, Often Aggressive, and sometime even Violent. From my observations of behavior and well common knowledge once the temperatures rise people start to think a different way.

Now my thoughts on how this works is kinda funny to me. People are dying to go outside during the winter months but because it’s too cold they often don’t. So once the chance comes you would think they would be happy with that burst of energy. However I have come to find that burst of energy often becomes destructive.

I personally think it might be because everyone thinks “OMG IT’S GOOD WEATHER I NEED TO ENJOY THIS RIGHT NOW AND NOTHING CAN GET IN MY WAY” …As if the focus of limited time comes to play. Patience is just a thing of the past I suppose. The thought process becomes GET TO POINT B from point B WITH NOTHING TO STOP ME NOW!

It’s strange like we aren’t going to see another good day for the rest of our lives? A Great and common example of this that I deal with daily is the shopping experience. People wait inline to buy whatever but if it’s not done quickly it becomes a reason for people to just lash out. Like someone is pulling em back perhaps?

It’s a strange state to be in but people have become very impractical about things that to me make ZERO SENSE. Why would you get mad that you have to wait to buy FREAKING ICE CREAM!!!? IT’S ICE CREAM…it’s going one of two places and fast.. Your face or a freezer!

It must be me but I have noticed this is a thing that just keeps coming up and it doesn’t have an age range either. I have seen young and old alike get like this and I don’t understand the reason.

Observation 175

About to go on vacation. After a very long past 4 months of dealing with Holidays, work changes, and so on I need to reboot so that’s what I plan to do today. Clear the files in my brain and come in fresh so I am hoping to do more of this and attempt to get myself into a better space.

With the start of the new year I have some goals in mind. 200 is slowly approaching with this page and I think … going to do a dramatic change on the format of my writing. Might even start a Vlog portion just to free style some thoughts out into the world. Which really is what this writing is.. but I think speaking might help on another level. I have plans!

Over all dealing with the cold has me looking at myself, the way my life is going, and it’s helping me think over what type of person I want to be. I am enjoying myself right now and responsibility is just a given. So I love the spot I am at right now. Going to push some creative ideas here and really try to make something fun come out of all this stuff.

Observation 174

End of the year is almost here! I didn’t make it to 200! I did try!! But my mind simply wasn’t in it this year. Been working hard at work and because of that sleeping has become a thing I seem to be doing.  Sundays have been a short time of my week that I can relax. I HAVE started to stream on youtube! Been playing some Tetris Effect, Overwatch, Doom “Of Course!” You can find all that nonsense under the Media tab at the top..or search Kabal610 on Youtube..You can find it!

Most of the streams Feature myself.. My brother “Shawn”.. my cousin ” Chris” my besty “Ian”..and from time to time other co workers and naturally my girlfriend “Megan”.. It’s what I do to relax.. I did buy a Nintendo Switch recently also and it’s fun!! Naturally I have Doom on it and it amazes me how good it runs! Perfect so far.. but I will write more about that on my games page when I get the chance.. Currently I am playing Darksiders 3, Smash Brother Ultimate, and a few other games also.. but that’s in-between time ..

I have come to the conclusion that I need to find more time to relax.. NOT SLEEP… but actually relax my mind from everything going on around me.  So naturally I fall back into video games and reading comics which I am forcing myself to do now. I haven’t been hitting the gym much… I SHOULD BE ..AND PLAN TO GET BACK ON THAT.. but with it being December..and cold…and yea….laziness….bad…blah…

I haven’t spoken much about my personal life on here in awhile which is kinda funny cause this is all supposed to be an OBSERVATIONAL blog/thing… Life has been for the most part a steady line. Not great..not bad.. but steady.. I got most of my Christmas shopping done..and for the most part have been in a decent head space I guess.. This really isn’t much of a post at this point …just trying to filter out …where I am?

 

 

Observation 173

Politics is very much like Religion to me. You don’t talk about it much because everyone has an opinion on any given situation. So naturally I don’t talk much about it. I had a site that I was posting on with my views on it and I stopped because I felt like I was repeating myself and honestly I just didn’t know what to say any more about it.

https://politicsalexander.wordpress.com/

I think the last post on that site was like 3 years ago or something close to that. Regardless I don’t like to post stuff on facebook about it or really anything like that. What I do like to do is examine a situation what it is and come up with information as fact as I SEE it. If I see and can prove without a shadow of a doubt that something happened the way it did I will from time to time comment on it or write about it.  My views are simply my own and I like to think about things as I KNOW IT TO BE TRUE.

So with that being said I have somethings I want to say about a particular topic that really puts to fact most of the 173 post I have on here about my observations. Some notes and comments as it is to think about.

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For 172 Observations I have been saying that I think people are getting dumber. That I think we don’t educate ourselves enough. We follow like sheep very easily into information we NEVER fact check. Some of us don’t know how to fact check at all. Some of us simply don’t know how to tell the difference between an OPINION and a Fact. That to sum it up the SOURCE of all our problems is EDUCATION.

We live in a time Full of resources and information. It’s a beautiful thing to have the ability to google. In less then minutes a person can come up with valid facts and proof to make a statement FAST. I loveeeee the internet for that. I love the melting pot of it all as well because it’s forums are a place of pure beauty. You have two sides to the coin and you have lots of shades of gray with it.

When it comes to politics I believe a person shouldn’t be red or blue but gray. I LOVE the concepts of a Republican, I Love the ideas of Democrats. I agree with the arguments because until ACTUAL FACT can be displays we should have an open discussion on what would be the better way. Keywords being BETTER WAY.

If this country is indication of anything it is that we breed smart people and it can vary on many topics.To say that ONE person is the end all be all on anything is not only showing a lack of knowledge but it shows such a limited way of thinking. It’s saying I am better at everything and no one can disprove that ever which is ignorance.

Politics is not and never has been about ONE person. It has always been about the thinking of many people in a system of balanced checks and orders. Our entire way of living is built into a system that supports many opinions….so getting to my point.

I hear people saying that man is the only person qualified to do something I think to myself what world do we live in that ONE person becomes superman? That one person is without question the only person qualified to do something MANY PEOPLE are educated and qualified to do.  It’s a job and it’s about doing it the correct way and not about opinion.

To say only one person can do something is stupid. Any job can be taught and understood by any number of people. NO ONE is the be all end all of anything. While yes we have a range of understanding that goes low to high. We all understand that no one is perfect for something.  Mistakes will be made and that is just how it is.  People make mistakes WE MOVE ON.

Now my biggest problem is not with anyone specific or any party for that matter. If the republicans believe something is RIGHT.. I hope to the gods that They know something I don’t and THEY ARE RIGHT. I can say the same for the democrats. However if you can prove that something isn’t working and you still believe that it is. Clearly being delusional isn’t a good thing. IT WILL LEAD TO PROBLEMS.

No one wants to say I TOLD YOU SO. We get great satisfaction FROM saying it because we know that the path ahead is the correct one and it’s PROVEN. If you have ever had an argument with someone close to you this is something that comes up. I say something is wrong.. you say I am wrong.. we find out I am Right.. and we move on because it’s PROVEN.

It’s fear and lack of knowledge that make people hostel. It’s fear that brings sadness because we are smart and some are dumb to FACTS. I fear a world that says ONE person can only do something that many people are educated to do.

Observation 171

I have never done drugs, Drank a bit but I have always had a clarity on my reality that I think has been pretty straight forward. I have a great imagination for someone my age I like to believe. Routine comes to mind while planning how I do everything that I do. I feel like I am in a good place yet I look at what is going on in the world with my “adult” eyes and I have lots questions.

If you know that explaining a given situation in detail is important to the statement of calling something a fact. How do you manage to mess that up? Take for example the description of any given transaction at a convenience store. You have a Customer, a Cashier, the product, and the price.  Basic information to follow. The customer chooses the product brings it to the cashier and pays the price. Those are FACTS. Nothing in that is opinion because it all can be proven by way of description.

Now if you go into more detail on that same situation it can become complicated. How did the person walk into the store? Walked, Ran, Skipped, or Jumped? What did the person choose for the product? etc etc.. Details and descriptions of things I feel are the source of our biggest problems currently. I thought for a long time it was Education but I think it’s more so the details in the Education that have become a bigger problem.

Everyone knows what a color wheel is. It describes the basic relationships between colors. Anyone can make it complicated by describing the tones, shades, and textures of a color. That isn’t hard to do at all. I feel like people have made this sort of thing just as complicated as that only they relate it to everything that is done now. I can tell anyone a story and chances are by the time the 10th person tells that same story it’s been changed in some major or minor way.

Details are important but I think the one thing that is constantly bothering me is how people detail things. I’ll have to write and think about this more in the future.

Observation 170

170 post about my observations on the world and people still act like I didn’t see all this coming. I have repeatedly said over and over again that our education needs to be improved. We need to focus more on teaching our children yet here we are in the state we are. People become very keen on looking for answers without questioning any truth to the solution.

I don’t think it’s sad that Facebook and false information managed to get people to believe in lies. I think it’s sad that we managed to get ourselves into this situation and got suckered. No one stopped and said is that true? The few that did say it just kept falling down rabbit holes of information that was not only made up but became so ridiculous to believe that common sense went out the window.

Hell years ago I came up with the idea on wanting to write a book on the topic. Now so many people have written books on it that I don’t think it would even get noticed now. I think that a book on how to actually solve the issues presented would probably work but how do you get common sense to be common again? Further more how do you prove a fact?

It’s the job of lawyers to come up with undeniable proof on facts. I am not a lawyer but I can see how difficult that has become on even simple topics.  You say something is red and people get very itchy to say WHAT TYPE OF RED? Rose Red, Blood Red, and so on. Is the earth Round? WHO SAID THAT? It just goes on and on and on.

If the internet is indication of anything it is that opinion and Fact are based on a variety of view points. Just become you saw something doesn’t exactly mean everyone seen in that way.

Observation 169

Today is my 35th birthday and naturally a few things are going on in my mind. Of course I am thinking about the future and the past. The place I am currently at is without question a high point. I have my job which I am doing very well with. My own place, my family which I love, a girlfriend who couldn’t be better if she tried and everything is at my finger tips. I compromise nothing these days.

Everything changes and I truly believe that the power of thought has a very big affect on everything we color our world with. A well placed plan and always reviewing the possibilities both good and bad make things work for the unexpected. I have always been good at doing that.. knowing the unexpected and putting it in it’s proper box. Perhaps natural instinct or experience has made this a thing for me but I can’t think of a time in my life that I wasn’t good at reading it. At times I thought it perhaps a super power I have?

Not everyone can do it. Read into the moment and have a great idea on what will happen.  I have a plan and the possibilities are endless but I guess the real question that comes with every birthday is how long? I can hope for another 35 years but isn’t it true with every day live like it’s your last? If it all ended today I would say without question I have had a great life. I want more of course and I don’t know of many people who can say that much!

I look forward to the future and just keep my faith high as well as my hopes.

An Introduction to something “Observation 168”

You’re born into this world with 3 musts. You must breath or die, you must feed or die, and last but not least you must sleep or die. Everything after the musts are decisions you make. Decisions that hold a center meter level of comfort or discomfort.

I say center meter because should I paint a picture of anything with this writing it is that of a meter with one side labeled comfortable and one uncomfortable. Perhaps to make it interesting one side is black with a fade to white with of course the center being gray.

Not Wrong or Right but comfortable and uncomfortable because I don’t agree with wrong or right just yet. Hell you are born not knowing ANYTHING but the feeling of comfortable and uncomfortable and I believe that is how this entire thing gets Complicated.

Life is from day one a series of events and sensations thrown into a point of view. If I was born into a room with cold air all around me chances are the feeling of hot air would change by sensation. The interpretation of just that concept alone sends millions of new ideas to the mind. Do I like cold air more or hot? Can breathing be comfortable?

I for one am a person who was born with the very idea of breathing alone was an effort. I simply couldn’t do it because I wasn’t ready to do it. So with some outside assistance,medication, and perhaps a level of stubborn willpower I managed to work on it. Imagine that thought for a moment. Born not even 5 seconds out of my mother and already work to be done.

What is work exactly? Can something so simple like breathing be work? Well the way I like to think it is effort = work. We are born into effort and discomfort so we work to make it comfortable. Once we are comfortable we are calm and we try to find bliss in that.

Bliss being the goal and drive for everything we do. Some of us take for granted just how simple that is. Really think about what the hell does a baby really want? It knows nothing and doesn’t speak for itself yet it has sensations and feelings that allow it to know what is comfortable and what isn’t.

Personally I believe that is the spot everything we say and do comes from. You are who you are because you can do what you can in a comfortable manor. Think about what we do for work and what we try to define as the right way of doing things and the wrong. Hell let’s make it simple and start with rule number one.

LIFE IS SACRED AND THE FIRST THING EVERY GOD CREATES THAT MATTERS. It’s why we are here…it’s existence. Now I won’t get religions but the point is we can all agree that If I am here and You are here that moving past here is not only inevitable but it must come on it’s own. After all present is all that matters now and future is all that will matter later.

CONFUSING AND COMPLICATED I KNOW!! WHAT THE HELL AM I REALLY TALKING ABOUT HERE? Stress.. dealing with it.. and an introduction to something..

I want to explain that lots of people seem to have this really strange concept of what is important in life. Some people even go as far as to say THIS MUST BE and THIS CAN’T BE. I want to start this by saying YOU DON’T GET TO SAY WHAT MUST BE EVER. You started this life the same exact way everyone else did. With the three MUSTS.

MUST EAT..MUST SLEEP..MUST BREATH… END….

Everything else that you do is a decision based on how comfortable you want to be, Which in some forms has already been predetermined before birth/existence on a genetic and physical level. A person can not will themselves to be something entirely different without the concept of what that difference is first.

I can not want to be a man until I understand what a man is. Same can be said about Women. What is a man? What is a Woman? Concepts and ideas based on rules and thoughts that as a function only come to terms based on levels of comfort.

For example if I say a man is someone with a Penis who works 40 hours a week, loves his family, and supports himself. That becomes the definition of a set of rules made by an internal thought only to myself. The reflection of on society becomes the interpretation of comfortable and uncomfortable.

You might agree making that statement comfortable with you or you might disagree and want to sway from the discomfort in turn from a natural course try to make it MORE comfortable with YOU…NOT… me.. This is how the arguments start. Arguments which can in it’s most negative form lead to heightened states of tension, stress and even violence.

So let’s go into that because with those three you have an array of emotions that all have counter sides like comfortable and uncomfortable. If you are comfortable you are in a solid state of balance. Nothing is good and nothing is bad. You simply are and that is an impossible feeling to have considering you have sensation always attacking you.

Let’s say we remove sensation.. can it even be done? Even if you floated in a room with zero gravity and absolutely nothing happening the human body creates sensation for you. You hear the heart beat, the air enter your body, perhaps your stomach growl from the lack of food. The bones shift, decay and the hair on your head moves with the motion of a body that simply can’t stand still. Stillness perhaps also impossible to achieve in a living body.

Isolate the body and strange things start to happen. The mind goes into places it likely wouldn’t normally. Sensation again something that happens but is not A MUST in life. Nerves which provide sensation can be cut and have in some cases stopped.  Again.. a complication.

Observation 167

I have been working with the public since I believe it was two months after I graduated High School. My experience with work has always been based on routine. I learned that routine works for me “Even today” to be the best way to be progressive with it all. I was raised on the concept that if you work you deserve what you put into it.

My method for getting to the place I am at right now was simple. Always be available, Always follow the rules, Always say Yes if asked to do more work.  Now I knew that was going to be unfair to me because not everyone agrees with it. With experience I learned just because I do something doesn’t mean anyone has to do it the same way.

So pushing myself was always a selfish emotional battle for me.  Why push if no one is going to push with you? Why fight something that you know you will get no help with? I think that has always been the way I think and the only answer to both questions I could come up with was because I could do it. I know my abilities to push past what people expect of me “Even Today” are always going to turn out better.

If I say I can work for 8 hours and at the last hour someone says can you do another 8 hours I will say yes. While I will always find away to make it work I also maintain that perhaps pride for my own work ethic. Mentally it’s a battle because knowing I have no back up is the way I understand it.

However the standard for most jobs is to say YES we will help you if you need it but we just say that. We will say you can have this that and the other but don’t really expect it. This really does bring me to people.

People are selfish and that is just the nature of the beast. I don’t know if age has anything to do with that. Some of it I feel is personality working it’s structure around work ethic. I am not 100% sure how I feel about it but I know that thru experience it will never be fair.