If the only place I was judging my personality was on here, a person would think me rather serious about everything. Fact is I’m a goofball who has used this space for just some random thoughts on how the average day goes on. Experience is hard to write about because of the many layers I need to peel off just to explain anything.
It’s been explained to me that some people don’t have internal monologue “Aphantasia “.No voices at all to think about the future or the past. They just do things on experience and what they have learned. It’s not a disability or anything like that. In truth those people function very well.
I admire that type of thinking. I imagine having to function based on interactions rather than thought to be a simple life. Routine would be easy to pick up because anyone would think it’s easy to get over stuff and probably easy to understand rules. Probably more complicated to make the rules but once set into a comfortable direction probably easy to follow.
I think of a situation like this. A person meets another person and is asked to go out to eat. The one says it wants Pizza. The other agrees however that decision couldn’t be made before both parties know what pizza is. both would already have to have an I’m idea on the type and taste of the pizza to agree. This is based on just experiencing both positive and negative exploration of taste before hand. Which means someone would need to feel open minded until a negative experience happens to such an extreme that it prevents any further decisions to be made to change that original out come.
what does anything I say have to do with my original statement on serious writing here? Often I think too much so when I sit down and write it often doesn’t come from my impulsive behavior to adjust to a comfortable state. My jokes and personality come from interacting with people. Cause writing doesn’t involve anyone but me..it’s often serious. That’s what I have come to discover about myself.