Observation 182

Had a very good weekend. Celebrated my Elder Nephews 16th Birthday at my parents house. It was nice and everyone got along well, my CJ enjoyed it as best as I think he could. Followed that night with spending a great deal of time with my sister, cousin, his wife, and my aunt. It all worked out really well and YESTERDAY.. I was super tired to the point that I slept a majority of the day.

Today I woke up at like.. between 4 or 5 a.m.. Trying to prepare my body for going back to work tonight. I managed to setup a interesting routine in which I go to work, Come home and play a few rounds of Mortal Kombat 11. I am finding it calms my mind down but I think I am going to start to add gym into this routine now.

I have been using this new app on my new Phone.. called
https://www.myfitnesspal.com/ and I was using it on my old phone but it works better now.. Since.. May.. and I have actually lost a ton of weight. I just wanted to get my diet corrected before I started to focus on the gym which I am going to start to do I think this week. God knows I have been paying for the gym membership for awhile and not going so…yea.. KINDA A WASTE…!!

So that’s my second goal for this year. The writing has slowly gotten better and I am trying to focus more on writing this book I keep saying I AM GOING TO DO.. Which I haven’t.. but we will see.. To many things are distracting me..Work has been picking up which is good..and bad.. Good in that we are making some serious changes in sales that are working well with what we have. Bad in that I have a great deal of pushing to do and perhaps the gym Idea is really going to help me Focus more.

MANNNNN…this was Random.. but yea.. Doing great so far.. happy with the first month of being 36.. Progress!

Observation 167

I have been working with the public since I believe it was two months after I graduated High School. My experience with work has always been based on routine. I learned that routine works for me “Even today” to be the best way to be progressive with it all. I was raised on the concept that if you work you deserve what you put into it.

My method for getting to the place I am at right now was simple. Always be available, Always follow the rules, Always say Yes if asked to do more work.  Now I knew that was going to be unfair to me because not everyone agrees with it. With experience I learned just because I do something doesn’t mean anyone has to do it the same way.

So pushing myself was always a selfish emotional battle for me.  Why push if no one is going to push with you? Why fight something that you know you will get no help with? I think that has always been the way I think and the only answer to both questions I could come up with was because I could do it. I know my abilities to push past what people expect of me “Even Today” are always going to turn out better.

If I say I can work for 8 hours and at the last hour someone says can you do another 8 hours I will say yes. While I will always find away to make it work I also maintain that perhaps pride for my own work ethic. Mentally it’s a battle because knowing I have no back up is the way I understand it.

However the standard for most jobs is to say YES we will help you if you need it but we just say that. We will say you can have this that and the other but don’t really expect it. This really does bring me to people.

People are selfish and that is just the nature of the beast. I don’t know if age has anything to do with that. Some of it I feel is personality working it’s structure around work ethic. I am not 100% sure how I feel about it but I know that thru experience it will never be fair.