I’m trying to reorganize again. My mind, my home, my life. Keeping what works and disassemble the rest. So chatGPT says that I’m not broken, but because of the bad trip my anxiety has gotten outta control.
Breathing exercises, meditating, reading and honestly the fact skynet is keeping me focused is really strange. I fucking hate A.I. but god damned if it’s free information I don’t have. I also tried to get professional help which would cost me 30$ dollars a week that if you do the math is 120$ a month that i don’t have so…fuck…that!
I have to figure this out…the new year is around the corner..rent is paid..going a total of my entire life of never being late. Responsibility was never an issue until.. I wanted to fuck something up. Which really I didn’t want to do..I just wanted to relax.
I wanted a space to find something new and I broke myself. I wanted to relax and i couldn’t do that right but..I think I’m open now to improve. I admit I’m wrong now. Was never good at that. I know how my brain works. I over think everything. So admiting im wrong is important.
I think seeing multiple time lines is good cause it proves I can’t think of everything.