In this moment I am. but i can see and feel feelings from other versions of me. Time isn’t real. Taping into the different versions of myself is strange because I know what I want to say and do but can’t. yet I also can…
I have now seen myself grab that mouse 6 times.. lets see if it happens again. yes..
I am trying to make sense of what I’m feeling. It’s good and bad at the same time. I kinda feel it in waves now. taping into one feeling reacts to another. I wish I knew how to explain it. It’s like I know how to feel. but don’t. Eeven the mistakes on this page can be repaired later. But if i post this now it will be more interesting to rread later. why fix the mistakes..? That’s why they are after us to they can control this chaos. I get it now. We are at one point but the other versions of what is happening gets chosen after different times.
if your around happy people and happy things you will feel good. lets end that way…and see how it all ends…up..8 time… post!
writing helps.it gives .e something to focus on.we all want the good ending lol…its true..
I wonder what stuff i am allowed to change.less debt would be nice. But I think everyone sends that.whatevee.. I guess liberally dont give myself credit
listening n g to beast k back beast in black ..anyway.. feeling better still high..but yea..whatever
its morning now.. still feel it but less intense now.. Lilith is sitting with me watching elmo. Im just chatting with everyone. Think that most of what im trying to sort out here is the problems of money and currency which apparently Ai is supposed to sort out at some point.
string theory is real and this is definitely proof of that. Being able to feel and witness multiple versions of singular events and attempting to control which way the mind goes with them is very interesting. I can honestly witness several ways to go but its a confusing drive that sets the path. Kinda like the soul or for a less religious way of looking at it. Consciousness is what im writing about. Its a strange drive to see only some of the probably billions of possibilities.
so how does this happen? If I had to guess it taps into the living consciousness and actives parts that aren’t normally active. I need to figure out how to do that without the drugs.
life is the trunk of the tree..with the branches being the alternatives we see but dont actually live.its ever expanding and has no limits.
I worry about my stomach.its funny to me because before i turned 27 I had none of these issues. My metabolism was great and I probably should have taken advantage of that but I didn’t think it would stop at some point in life. I guess ya live and learn.
its now 230pm and I’m still a mess. Still can’t comprehend time. Hopefully this will be over soon and I can make sense if it later.
there is a dark side to seeing all the multiple versions of what the future brings that I think is a natural instinct.it prevents us all from doing stupid shit we shouldn’t be doing. Getting high makes that part sort of float in my mind and while its scary I think it’s also the balance for the high. Like you can be super happy but still have this side that’s present like.. this is too good for you something is gonna mess it up. Vibing as kids call it today but it’s more about balance. Chill and like a safety feature our brains set to.
My brother spoke of it once as a instinct that keeps us going. Like survival over safety. Like when you go camping and you know you aren’t in a safe place but you raise your instincts to be more aware. We crave that sort of feeling so we know we are alive. Its both good and bad.. think this post is done..