Recently I have been feeling kinda odd about my surroundings. Almost like the winter hush has been pushed a bit past a point. It feels like people are staying silent and plotting maybe against me is happening. I wouldn’t call it paranoia but perhaps a wave of caution about those who I interact with. Probably cause of all the would be big changes that are supposed to be taking place. I’m not sure but I feel it in my bones.
Speaking of bones we are about to be hit hard by a winter storm. Tomorrow will be a very long day for me but I’m prepared. I unlike many have the advantages of working very close to home and I don’t drive. So really nothing to stop me short of the power going out but honestly that wouldn’t stop me so much as limit what needs to be done. I place my life very much like a chess piece and try to position myself as available as possible. Even today with all this technology still finding people available to work is a rarity. Kinda sad..
Also on a strange side note I have been having strange nightmares lately involving High School in Brooklyn and not knowing what classes I’m supposed to be going to. I guess going to that school was more traumatic than I remember. I know by comparison Tuxedo was a far easier place to navigate than Madison. I wake up from those nightmares in happy with my daughter and wife. Yet a odd feeling like I shouldn’t be in this place. I know I finished and all of that but I keep feeling like someone’s going to run in here and tell me I cheated or something strange like that. Suppose I should just count my lucky stars and be happy which really I am but it’s just those minor moments.
Can’t accept peace and can’t put my guard down about anything and maybe that’s the Brooklyn in me. Just always careful and staying sharp.