I have always known we are in a strange place politically. Hell I have repeatedly said the reason we are here is because of our education. Being taught half truths and pooling information from local interactions doesn’t work without diversity. If you can’t see how so many people get thru the day in different ways you aren’t seeing the entire picture.
I grew up in Brooklyn during the 80s and 90s. Most of early teenage years I was doing what most city kids do. Listening to music and trying to find something to keep my interest that didn’t include lady bits. For the most part I was a gamer and even today that hasn’t changed much. I eventually got into making music which I was decent at doing but never really pushed myself with it in such that I ever made anything amazing.
I’m the type of person who has always looked down at myself and was never very sure about anything. Also I never changed much of this stuff because I know what I enjoy. I wake up even now knowing what I enjoy and I pursue it. Nothing has ever once tried to stop me. Even on the days that it’s super hard to find motivation and hope I some how manage to push past the bullshit and find in every moment something is in the underline to be comfortable if not good.
I hold hope because what’s actually stopping me. Sure people have talked shit before, I have had a list of arguments with others and things don’t always go my way but I’m breathing, standing here and again.. comfortable. The world could be on fire and I would be okay with that because if I know anything is true it’s that until I stop fighting I have no reason to be defeated.
so we stand in a strange political place and I am here to really question what’s going to change about my situation? Are people going to knock on my door and throw me in a cage? Will I not fight back? Isn’t every day a fight anyway no matter the position? I rest easy in thoughts about the love I have. I find peace of mind only comes when I think about how comfortable I really am. I work hard enough, I’m always tired, And i have everything I have ever wanted so of course every day is a fight.