Observation 164

I am a big fan of Horror both in film and novels. I am also a big fan of Video games like Doom, Mortal Kombat, God of War, Hatred, etc.. More Recently “since about 2007 very little dabbling before that” I have even started to collect comic books. I can also say WITHOUT QUESTION I am the least violent person you will ever meet.

My General demeanor around people is often very chill as a matter fact. I love conversation and I am a very welcoming person to talk with. My taste into violent and morbid things really has NOTHING to do with my actions towards people and more to do with the why.  I have always been the type of person who looks scary but upon talking to me you learn very quickly I am a giant Jiggly puff!

Now I bring all this up because I grew up during the 90’s and that was a time of great debate on Media. All things I enjoy became this hub for how or can it effect ME as a growing young person. Would all that violence turn me into a violent person? Truth be told I grew up in Brooklyn, NY and I have always managed to avoid violence. If I am being really truthful with myself I probably feel more violent towards adults my age now than I ever felt as a young person but I can tell you that is because I don’t understand how adults MY AGE.. think as oppose to anything violent I watched ” I have yet to kill anyone or hurt anyone with violence still” .

As a matter a fact I will go even further with that and say as a person who has been put into many situations I COULDN’T GRASP or Understand. I do believe that playing a few rounds of Doom probably kept me from pulling my own hair out.  Why? The escape and my own grasp on reality is the answer. I have always known that we have two very different types of actions in life. The enjoyment of FICTION and the actions of REALITY are different things. APPLES…AND ORANGES.. both food.. but not the same..

Again I surround myself with this morbid stuff. Have I ever in the past hurt myself or anyone? That is a big 100% NO. Hell do I even have a grasp on real violence in the world? The best answer I can give to that is that ONCE I went shooting with my brother “at a shooting range” and even after all the times I fired a weapon in a video game I can say shooting a weapon in real life.. VERY VERY VERY DIFFERENT! NOT EVEN CLOSE TO THE SAME!

It’s sort of like saying I built a house in the sims so I can build a house in REAL LIFE.. YOU MUST BE OUT OF YOUR SKULL TO THINK THAT TRUE! The fact that we are ONCE AGAIN .. in 2018 going to get back into this debate is insane. I would also like to be very clear about something while on the topic of weapons.

I DO believe people should be allowed to own whatever you want. Be it a home full of weapons, cats, dogs, dildos…Whatever! If you are in the UNITED STATE OF AMERICA you have the freedom to do that.  However I think if you are saying you are following the 2nd amendment as an excuse for WHY you have that weapon. YOU ARE DELUSIONAL and here is why.

If you really believe that owning a machine gun, or let’s REALLY PUSH IT..  A rocket launcher.. or lets say the town you live in has every home FULL of GUNS from block to block. You are Delusional to think that you can stop the united state Government from taking that stuff away from you. We are talking about the United State Government here.. The Police, Fire Department, Military and whatever number of branches below that.  If you seriously think you could stop all of that with the 100 guns you have..

Billions of dollars are given to support our troops. Billions in research on making bigger better ways of making it work and you seriously think that having a gun will stop all that? I have a unicorn in my kitchen right now that can take you on a ride if you want to believe it. People need to get a grip on themselves.

Now that again isn’t to say you shouldn’t own a gun. YOU SHOULD.. Protect yourself from Crime. Good on you but do not think for a second that you can ever hold the 2nd amendment up and say my four fathers wanted me to protect myself from Government because that idea has been lost a long time ago once we started organized groups that Government gets paid for BY YOU to deal with.

This all hurts my head to think about…puff

Observation 163

So a great deal has happened in the last two weeks that really I probably should explain. First off I wasn’t 100% sure I was moving till 2 weeks ago. I didn’t post anything or say anything to anyone about it because I simply don’t do that sort of thing unless I am 100%. I only signed the lease and what not last week so everything happened quickly. I have been working my ass off and short of packing everything it’s been hectic.

I had taxes to think about which are done, moving, work, and currently thinking about this site which has now become very SIMPLE… and easy to understand I can say with a full heart I am happy with everything. I will also note that the weather hasn’t made anything easy. Everything is covered in ICE Right now.. For a guy who walks all over the place it is good and it sucks at the same time.

So having a calm mind to write is only now becoming a thing.  With the move and the start of the new year I have been thinking about the future. I think it’s something I normally start doing in November of every year. This year in particular some lights have been turned on in my mind which will require big steps. Life changing steps perhaps and I think I am finally in a place to make most of it all happen.

As a person who over thinks naturally thoughts like this come and go but I feel like since I am about to be 35 this year and they say your life changes every 7 years..

7..14..21..28..35… I do believe that a great many things should happen.  I won’t say I am pushing for anything but I will say that concepts in my head are being designed. Perhaps lots of brainstorming… thoughts…. we will see how it all goes!